‘I Got Mad’--Carrie Underwood Tearfully Reveals She Had 3 Miscarriages
Underdwood describes a painful time many women know.
Before Carrie Underwood announced that she and her hockey playing husband, Mike Fisher, would be adding another baby to their family, the country superstar was privately dealing with heartbreak. Underwood, who is mom to three-year-old Isaiah, recently revealed that over the past two years, she suffered three miscarriages.
During each miscarriage, Underwood said she turned to her faith to help deal with the grief. However, when she thought she was facing what would be her fourth miscarriage, the country singer said that's when she got mad--very mad.
"I was like, 'Why on Earth do I keep getting pregnant if I can't have a kid?' Do something. Either shut the door, or let me have a kid.' For the first time, I feel like I actually told God how I felt. And I feel like we're supposed to do that."
Underwood told CBS News
But for Underwood, getting angry felt wrong and almost hard to do with the previous losses because she knows how lucky she is and what a blessed life she lives.
"I had always been afraid to be angry. Because we are so blessed. And my son, Isaiah, is the sweetest thing. And he's the best thing in the world. And I'm like, 'If we can never have any other kids, that's okay, because he's amazing.' And I have this amazing life. Like, really, what can I complain about? I can't. I have an incredible husband, incredible friends, an incredible job, an incredible kid. Can I be mad? No."
But while snuggling her son and feeling like she was losing yet another pregnancy, that's when it all changed.
"And for the first time, I feel like I actually I told God how I felt. That was like a Saturday -- and the Monday I went to the doctor to, like, confirm, another miscarriage. And they told me everything was great! He heard me."
While doctors say one in four women will suffer a miscarriage in their lifetime, the heartbreak and grief felt after a miscarriage is devastating and can last for years. However, having more women talk about their journey through pregnancy loss can only help those who are dealing with the isolation and pain of their own loss.